“Make a careful exploration of who you are and the work you’ve been given, and then sink yourself into that…you must take responsibility for doing the creative best you can with you own life.” Galatians 6: 4-5 (Message Version)
I’ve been thinking a lot about that. The ‘who the heck am I and what the heck am I supposed to be doing questions. Since Emma, the youngest of our brood, moved out, the question comes up a lot. People ask me all the time, “What are you going to do now?” I feel like somewhat of a failure since I don’t have a career waiting for me at this stage in my life. And now, Pastor Pete, who does my favorite blog, (http://withoutwax.tv/) is doing a series at his church on “What you do Matters”.
So that has me thinking overtime. Mike and I listened to the first message in the series last night. Pete talked about King David, when he was just a boy and went up against Goliath. Remember, David tried to wear Saul’s armor but eventually fought the giant in his own clothes with his own weapon. What he was comfortable with. (Okay, the message is soooo much more. You have to listen to it!)
This is just the part that sparked some questions in me. And for a moment I felt silly for asking. As old as I am, why am I still asking these questions? Then I remembered Galatians 6. “Make a careful exploration of who you are and the work you’ve been given…” It’s okay to ask those questions. It may actually be a prerequisite to “sinking yourself” into the work God gave you!
Also, it occurs to me that as my life has changed, what I do has changed. Being a mom of four little ones and being a mom of four adult children is entirely different. And if my identity is completely wrapped up in being a mom, well, I’ve successfully worked myself out of a job and out of an idenitity as well. So at this time more than ever, it’s necessary to have an identity apart from what I do.
This week, I’m asking God to help me make a careful exploration of who I am. Focusing on my past jobs, projects, and responsibilities. Looking at the things I’m passionate about, the things that give me energy. I want to find those common threads that God has been weaving into my very essence. I want to make sure that I’m not carrying around burdens or expectations, like Sauls’s armor, that don’t fit and that I wasn’t meant to carry.
Thanks Pastor Pete! Can’t wait to hear the next message on What You Do Matters!